u know.. i heaven been updating
little things in my life i remebered
Wei Qin changed her looks
she had make up
sexy clothes
more womenly
my little junior grown up
miss her lots~
Pei wen and margret are looking for job
They ask me
again
-sakae-
however i not sure
manager say labour cost been high
veen kinda close with mei hui
same job and same sch frm young mah
so been chatting lots
got to know alots of band stuff
and i confess i used to hate her
and she felt guilty after soul-searching with shi shi
-haha-
ok mel tag
long tag
i felt mad
pissed tt time
but now
-wadever-
i am done and dun feel much
till the next huh
thate me lar
i blow uo damn easilt
sumtimes small stuff
but later
hahah i am fine
like daphne
we are good pals now
ok.. i never mentions this
but the 4 gals know
daphne
Hmm i think u been dying to ask
but i still dun wan to sAY
dun ask
but now
the feelings is really like the past
still my F-R-I-E-N-D
4ever ya?
The BBQ.
everyone say the squid veryyyyy nice~~
everyone got blog now
alison
clive
alot more
mostly i add le
why?
why more go to blogging
is blogging good?
seriously
i really know some people
thru their blog
we are not even closE~
i go blog hopping
i watch in awe
for those who use big words
for those who use the shortest words
to replace the long blah blah
i learn not to
not to
not to
judge anyone
i mean i often used to sit down with peeps
we judge this gal or boy
then i felt scared
ok.. wad they judge me
and when i had judge this person
how do u judge
eveyrone have it good or bad
is not like a facotry work
Marks this Bad or GooD
imported or Made in local
now i am learning to be a new person
listen more talk less
as in.. dun way wadever i feel
wadever i feel about this person
coz i might be wrong after alll
and the smarted people dun talk much
si i wan be SMART~
woHohO
just read my sis testi for me
she home!
-.-"
anyway.. this part she said..
ur temper didnt change much
god..
really my family were the once who really know my temper
when i am soo bottled
and so fucked up
i dun yell or shout.. i think i roar
and i turn so nasty that u will think u never wan to come near me
i do violent things
i think i change much
i mean frm b4 work and after work
b4 my family problems and after my family stuff
b4 and after being mature
b4 knowning the 4 gals in school
b4 expaning my circle wider to work and poly
-before-
-after-
i think not much people know the real change
the real change is how i think actually
and how i think of people
and how i handle
i dun wan people to know
i roughly know how people view
-me-
the people who know me roughly
will say
-hot temper-
-childish-
-rash-
-head strong-
-postive-
-big mouth-
wad kinda are u?
i dun care
i know who thinks of me like this
but sometimes
i just smile and let it go
why do i wan to struggle and let people know the real me
how to?
and so wad if i do
do i care if they know ?
or do they care?
i am mostly likely the most negative and most postive person
so "-" and "+" is wad huh?
whenever something BAD happen
i would think
if this bad thing didnt happen
sometime worse gonna crop up
sometimes we blame god for doing this "minus" thing to us
but i think
Thank you god for giving me this instead of something worse
maybe wad was meant to give u was worse
but it didnt
in short- be grateful
however
when i think of wad people judge of me
wad my results are
wad my peeps view me
i marks myself worse
maybe was to get prepare and get hurt for the least
so that when u know the truth
u either get happy or get the least hurt
though every always think for the worse sometimes
everyone also have this little hope
they just dun dare to wish big enough
coz they are
afraid
this bubble of hope might just
*burst**
have i change?
u judge urself
i had
wish list
-get smarter
-get a new wallet
-get a new bag
-get a new computer
-hope my family are ever getting better and more happy as days go
-get all the a1 CdS b4 they are Gone~
-get the whole set or sweet valley books
-get the 1st 3 books of harry potter
list of self
-ok.. this is hard to do it but at least try ling~~~
- be more smart
-be more smart
-lost some weight
-be nice to people
-try to be like jin yan
-things that i used to bear or not bear and shooot out.. i hope there no need to bear or unbear at all in the fututre
-try to keep my cool all times
-be wad people like me to be
shit... who am i talking abt?
cant be hard to guess who it is
anyway
i am cool~
haha.. so weird
u know i know
-winks-
some people thinks that the everyone dun like guyA
he keep bad-mouthed guy A
bu he dunno everyone actually hate him
to him
wad others do
wad other say
is WRONG
wad opthers do
is sian
boring
so un-cool
wad he does is
right
interesting
cool and right
i see the funny part
he complains the world world
or complain other people
but he dun see it is others or rather everyone
who dun like him
tell ya the truth
i am pretty shocked when i know how many people really dislike this guy
really
i hear him yank abt other people
like he is kinda popular and good?
then when i got to know the truth
HAha BooMS
project wise?
i say poor jackson
but at least that would be the last
guess u must be thinking why i am starting to get mad again
go read his blog
there is this tennny tingy sentence
saturday.. went for fuchun band.. whaha.. jia alt.. the solo... MUST JIA YOU !!!!!!!!! then also...went to the BBQ... quite sian... ok la.. what can i expect of my classmate's planning ? okok.. shall not say much.. i know they put in effort.... its my ego that's too difficult to please.. whaha...
so sweet
here mine
maybe really i am too work up r wad
For that guy who first sentence was saying abt this bbq was
"Hey this is so happening the BBQ"
and rolls his eyes
that was when we only just started the bbq
i would say
"it will be damn happening without u commenting"
or maybe
"ya u know wad.. u can leave now"
and the one who says
no others friends allow
only for 1b/22 itself
but yet
for that guy who complains abt the whole world
for that guy who let his parnter do the most job
for that guy who thinks he always right
for that guy who always feel that others are not up to him
to that guy that no one likes
he got his good points
eveyrone has
and so does eveyrone got their bad point
but why does so many dislike his
and ya
the cake
great
dun need to mention
ok
my freind told me
"hwee ling.. u forgot the abt the logic in ur blog"
ya..
i told myself
this blog
try to write the lesson i learn in life
not as in wad i feel abt people
daily etc
u know
alot things
i wan to blog
i didnt?
why?
coz people are reading?
or some thought are just meant to be kept?
coz i am afraid our people might feel of wad i write?
i might be changin my style
i mean why i save in draft abt some stuff i wrote
thrn why open a blog
i read all my past entry last night
i recover and discver abt all those membories
i am someone who forget easily
and readin taht made me remeber
and i dont feel too good
i remeber my pri school friend used to laugh and be amazed
whenever we had fights
we stuck our tongue out at each toher
have a pact that we never talk to each other
then make sure our friends dun go to the "enemy" side
for me..
ya i does that
the thing is
next day *bOoms*
Forgot
i remeber twice the face of my friends
they were preparing for the "battle"
but in the morning
i just keep smiling at them
i totally forgot
then they keep pondering wads wrong with tt gal
another one
this gal keep comming up to me
tell me "sorry"
hope i ok with her
coz she blah my secrets out
i ddint ans her
my face was straight
she tot i was still mad
the truth?
i was thinking
wad did she do at all
when i remebered
i burst out laughing during a P.E game
and everyone stared
we became freinds again
however
blogging
make u vent it out and forget
forget as in
u type
that anger sadness emtions are laid
u wont spend the whole day thinking
abt the emtions and having to control
if left in the web there
THERE
though it is typing to a machine
one with a square screen that show wad u types
u naturally feel so much better
coz i let it go
at there
however when it time to press that button " Publish Post"
i waited
and think
Shit..
wad if blah blah blah read this
how would the person feel
would i sound bitchy?
would people judge me this way
then by the time i bother by all this comments
my com will get hang already
the problem is waD?
we think too much
or others think too much?
it is just too much that sometimes i just cant think or care much
like the BBQ
on deciding the food and drinkgs
were afraid th malays coult take pork
were afraid some people dun drink green tea
me?
just buy
dun think so much or it never end
there are so many people
no, i am done abt the bbq
i mean others stuff
sometimes u cannot think for eveyrone
or else it will never end
sometimes some poeple got to be left out
it is better then eveyrone dun get the fun
then
actually eveyrone hate to be left out
and eveyrone like to be notic
but alot people just dun give comment
of example
some one got a new hair or clothes
even commenting it bad or good is a joy to them
at least people comment
guess how does it feel that people dun even comment
like de min
haha sorry have to list example
when she talks
listen
dun interuppt
or ignore her
or change the topic
or she sulk
and make u notice that she wants to talk
then u listen
i guess that why freinds are so impt ?
back in secondray school
i agree with alison
Hss people..
there are a little whom are really friends
i known alot people
like pretty people
ugly people
stuck up people
but seldom
are people who cares for freinds
really nice poepl
not those obessed with who got more handsome boy
got can is more chio
somtimes i sit there listening
even till now
about how we judge people
like we sit down there
and we judge
hits gal or guy is wad kinda peple
i admit
even i do
we say this person is anti
act cool
flirt
those are harmless chit chat
but it keep bothering me
how does other view me then?
i am curious to really know how people feel wad kinda person i am
i learn not to be scared of bad comments
though i still dun liek it
a virgo
hate to lose
hope to be the best
strives to be the best
hope to be the lime light
hate to messup
that why i am tired
Bloody tons i have to update but gonna keep it real short..
sis went for holidays
"sar-ra-wak" in malaysiashe been hyper abt this
caleed home just nowsaid was fun but she missed home
mom bday tml
i made that new ger cried
her bloody fault
attiude
manager gave her one week deadline
then she should be gone
-smiles-
ok.. bbq
i got tons to say
but dun need to mention alot should know
bloody those people who didnt go
expect for those who REALLY sick like xue-er
we bought the food accroding to the people who came
then now wad?
who going to pay for these people share
damn
my head just hurts thinking to tt.
maybe i get those who promise top pay regardless they came or not!
next// daniel
bloody.. he suppose to go help out carry the food
he promise
and promised
then he didnt turn up
didnt took any of our calls
irresponsible person i say
poor demin and jackson carried them all
next
i not going to do this ever again
maybe yes
just few of us
those in the ball people
and those who listen
next
cake was totally A waste
i tot i told mel to get half a kg each only?
then now wad
the cakes cost us 50 buck
budget budget!!!
why dun listen
then i am sick of some people
keep critising ever since
since when the person dont
-bloody-
told others not to
but yet ownself do it
who the hell
-Edited-
-mira-
- del-
glad u guys enjoys it
and really happy u all make it
Hope next time i can do a much better one kay?
-edited-
happy 17 demin
happy 19 qi xiang
after the bunch went off
only people like
demin daphne me qixiang jackson clive stayed
dad was not too happy abt it
should have guess
though he allowed in the end
by hanging his phone
i didnt feel good abt it
mom say he kept arguing abt it today
mum was so pissed with him
at least mum understand ..
till now i dunno was it a good thing or bad thing to stay
nutting much
btw guys the food cost abt $20 bucks each
i tell u why ok?
bloody
i didnt enjoy it at all the BBQ
maybe was too tired
but i was worrying and angry
nope
is not mention here at all
only some minor parts are
i cant help to feel that way
i am so freaking bitch to think that
but i cant control
and i dun wan to mention it to anyone in poly
so people dun ask kay
just was not myself tt day
Tied down with work, preparation for BBq, meeting friends
mostly was work though
meet up with ting yesterday
she pei me go book BBq pit
there was basically two choices
one that near the sea
damn beautiful
with borders and flower decorations
that was where my past 3e3 mr lam last dat bbq held
So.. StunninG and nice.. Romantic and Cooling
however it a must to book double pit
for $40 bucks
for like less then 15 people?
another was abit further frm the sea
abit not that nice
however have a shelter beside it
only single pit
and $20 bucks
the Huge and unpractical side of me
wanted that near the sea but cost 40 bucks wan
coz i really like the place it was
but the small practical said
remind me of the number and cost
couldnt decide
called
demin jin yan and daphne as usual
demin no ans
then shit jin yan and daphne chose the $20 bucks
i lost
Hee
well that was tempted by swensen's
that ting had to ask her bf if he mind
look like things got abit busted so have to tread by his toes
b4 we went in the mall
there was this guy
who wanted to either sell sumthing
or wanted to donate things to me
but i wad like in a weird mood
that just wana grab a bite and chat with ting
so he was buzzing around me
"hey, i just need one mi...."
Walking
"Hello.. sorry miss just o.."
Still walking like he is not there
"Hello dun like that le"
grin like a idiot
he was a young boy mind u
but still walking
"Wah.. so dao eh u"
Still walking and grinning
bad am i?
anyway
kinda glad catch up with ting though
chat all the way
it was like i got tons to ask..
but when i meet
nutting came much was it?
picture came more clear though
anyway
since u people feel that love can be pei yang de
then u all also got expereince b4
then since u chose ur current
i shall not vexed and test u further
u made the decision
i think u did listen to ur heart
and stick to it ok?
duin think abt it anymore
dun regret now
then u can also stop being so vexed le
slowly things will fall back in place ya //?
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anyway there this weirdo today
he wear like that idiot hung frm amercial idol
then he start to sell stuff to our customer
liek thos uncle or auntie in the coffee shop
ta! no allow in here uncle weirdo
then he told me his dunno-who died
then i say u wait i get my supervisor
then he also told her his duno who died
but our in-charge say
STILL it is not allow
he walked away spitting
"Why are u all so cruel!!"
*glup
Weirdo guy man*
then later then suddenly appear behing the railing
*ours is a kinda open-air shop*
and scold my collegues who having luch at the last table
where the supervisor just sat
Ratted some rubbish agin and went off
Okay there this new stuff
she a N-level ger
who going to work till december here
she manage to make eveyrone pissed off
Esp me in a week
she heaven learn menu
heaven learn billing
only know how to clear table and take drinks
then she do things super slow
she use one hour plus to complete her soyu and ginger
which usually take abt 35mins
and she couldnt finish
and she do in a exmtreme slow rate
at first was like
Kay she new here
lets me nice
and not scold her
WE demo and teach her the right way
and i have every right to believe she puposely dun listen
coz so many people told her
but she turn deaf ear
i was mad at that ger
she wants to use easy way to do stuff
when she doing half of people job
but she took the same pay
then u tell her nicely
she either act like she nv hear
or she just smile nod and dun listen
she suppose to do most of the clearing table
since she cant do others
but she fuckingly do it so slow
that we even carried a test
thatmy collgue
(a part time and newest there!)
can finish clearing two big table and she coulnt even finish one by hten!
bloody!
i taught her how to do it fast
she just refuse to do it
damn it
even gave a sour look
then she turn worse
once she walk to on my of collegues
then told her table 11 have to be cleared
and she walk away staring in space
damn it
my collegues was like
who the hell she think she is
today even worse
she had a break
my another collegue was standing near the water machine
guess was
she ask my collegue
to help her take a ice water
for her lunch
when the watcer machine right beside her
my collegues refuse and aks her take herself
Damn this kinda people
then later when we having our peak period
she go stand there and stare in the space
i then told her to look at customer
coz if they raise hand or wad
who going attend
she say "orh" and stare back.. in space!
then i say
"i say "look at customer rite.. u deaf?"
i was soo pissed
then another one
*she couldnt stop!*
she during peak hrs
*again*
went to top up useless thing that are done when customer are lessen
then all my collegues stare at her debating to say her again or not
or just save thir breath
so thick skin man her!
then i ask
"u very free huh..
this thing is peak period do one issiT? is suppose to be do at 9 plus de!
who ask u do one"
she gimme this damn sour look
"is running out wad"
Then i say
"ISSIT EMPTY"
"WHO TOLD U DO one HUH!"
then she shut up and put back
and since then she refuse to come near me
which is a good thing coz i Scream at her if she come one inch nearer
then today my manager plan her the easilest fucking job
just toppping chopstick boxes
damn that can be done in like.. 15 or 20 min?
she tok 45 mins..
then even worse
she was so plain lazy
she was bullyin my collegue to pass every single chopstick box for her accross the belt
no one had ever even dare do do it
my collegue stop and pause and look at me
gimme thay " do sumthign"
but i think i better stop the screaming
coz i tot maybe just one
just ONE
then she becume worse
she ask every single one
across the belt
i flare up
"EH u dun go beyond the limtit! chopstick boz the damn easiest job and walk will kill ur leg huh? u wan me teach u one by one issit.. wan to try?"
i am yelling
fuck.. i beared it with her the whole fucking day
ever since u come
everyone dislike to work with her
everyone complain
told her off again and again today
she made all my day abit pissed
and my collgues
now we look schedule
got this trend
this the bitch working with them closing too
though all of us did the harder job
yet we even finish before her
she trying to drag time
damn bitch
then who ever who finish have to go "close" the shop
bu pulling those grilles and sticks
all our least fav. job
we expect her to do
since her one is the easiest job and MEANT TO Be fastest job
but in the end
we finish them off
then left only a few
i seen her done (at last!)
i told my collegues to stop and ask her do
she Went to SIT DOWN AT THE TABLES AND REST!!
I almost wan to hit her man
we all are beat
3 of us didn 10 and half hr today u know!
then she came later
she got the cheek to sit there
i was so mad at her
then later my collegues told me
they counting on me to tell her off
i working fullshift again tml
so does she
i tell u if i made her cry or not
that BITCH
btw her name is shi xin
some called her xin xin
i call her
"go-li-la"
BBQ off since no one bother
i dun understand some people
we talk over our plans
now that gal got the cheek to tell me they wan go ice skating in the morning.
Then she with xue-er job is mon to sat 9pm to 4pm
then she say very hard to take off
fuck
then i request my manger gimme fri to sun dun work for wad
Kao... Grace already push me.. that why i this week already working everyday
fopr wad!
so that this BBQ wont be a flop
even if its jin yan who say go the ice-skating
there no need to push the fault to her
u urself can also say no
and think abt the BBQ wad
why issit must after i say then realise
i sick of it
alot things i been taking the first step for u all
then things are rnot tt messed up
why must everything wait for me to say then u all understand
that why i hate being da jie
and i always angry why people cannot think
why must wait for me to say then
why eveyrthing ask me
why must i be the only one vexing
fuck i am sick of this
Nutting rules anymore
i am sick of myself too
i am not mad mood or blowing tmeper
but i dun understand
nither do i wan to hear anything anymore
we plan that xue-er do the food with mel
then put the food at ur hse
then in the afternoon we can all go ur hse to pic up and start to prepare
so wad big shot if the facotry near ur hse
bloody
the whole class suppose to wait for u at ur door step
for u to knock off
then bath and get read
then we GET PREPARE!
cummon
arent u more then navie
oh another one
ask bring toi mel hse lor
fine..
do wadever
people all say nice nice then must do
cake u dun like
location u dun like
then later then "oh nvm.. up to u all"
WADEVER!
ARG!"
So FREakING pissed by how people can do
my friends were right
since so many peopel got so many comments
since so many peopel got their own view
u do the planning
all i do is book the pit
then attend
dun call me last min abt this this when the mess is created
fuck
shit
bloody
no i dun think i am right
nither do i think i think i can plan a wonderful BBQ
just that i really pu my heart to do sumting
which pissed me when i see people dun even think twice b4 u suggest stuff
finE goo ice-skating
go ask mel for help on food
on try to take u leave
and dun need to care if u cant get it
fine
eveyrthings so cool huh
i just book the pit and i go to work and go to sleep and at hme enjoy myself
and i dun wish to see anythign else
got tons to update..
motorla jobs off
they wan malaysian only or singapore with 6 mth contract
gotta keep look out then for other job
demin got job le..
congrats..
hope u get well kay? and all the best Hor
the job is factory de..
xue-er past job
jin yan
daphne
daniel
*better jia you to find job ok!*
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today went work early
had the coupon for $2 soft shell crab
it taste horrible
gonna order cumthing else next time
then saw the normal go express then was in 2e2,3e2,4e2 guy called marcus
his and his family was there
for buffet
welll.. we are only school mates,
dont really know each other
so do that
"oh i see anywhere but u coz we duno each other so is not excatly time for act like we know each other time so lets act that the celling look interesting shall we?"
so kinda ignore or rather didnt "saw" each other stunt
then later..
his family wanted to bill
they had buffet but they eat only the topping but not the rice
HELLO!!!!
that food wastage
didnt ur mother teach u not to waste food
and worse
they didnt order plate by plate..
they ordered PAGE BY PAGE!@!!!!!
like they wan whole page of sushi man!!!
then was like..!!!!!!!!!!
cummon sense lar uncle
the rice dun taste good
then u dun eat
wad kinda fucking shit u talking
then people say charge food wastage
then u give me lame excuse
he even argue with my supervisor
like those ill mannered uncles in those coffee shop kinda
even ask my supervisor who set this law
OMg..
which buffet dun charge food wastage
your house issit!?
the rice tatse weird?
helllllO?
u never ate a sushi rice b4
there fore u dunno sushi rice is cook with vinegar
that why taste slightly sour
not spoiled!
or else time bring ur own rice lar!
-duh-
-dumb and dumber-
then even ask my supervisor
say who start this law must pay for wastage
OMg.. He dumb beyond words
who start the law
my boss lar
Not happy called them up
got money eat buffet
no money to pay for wastage
dont eat lor
Fucked up people
his food wastge was suppose to be 21 plates!
then he only pay 5
then even got the cheek to scold my supervisor
ASS HOLE IN A PAIN MAN
dunno why i am so worked up
infact most stuff
was commenting on that ill mannered uncle
stupid!
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today got new ah-neh workng
haha
supervisor say they new rite
they tell them do they do
so can bully
*evil grin*
Ah loon mad de...
today so fierce to the ah-neh
one moment called them
"Yo brother udon spoon pls!"
then later
"EH! DUn need to close the door when u open ar!"
Wahs..
just watch chapter by a dozen
DVD with my sis
damn touching show
family bonds!
Arg so ever strong
and cool man the kids there..
now adays
more and more pople tend to celebrate
monthly annver.
like their first month
second month??
i frowned
why?
or issit a mircle for people
to be togther for less then a year
Wong Kah YAn
Her bday is on 7 nov
kinda late
Happy Sweet 17
dun be sooooooo guai lan
and act innocent le hor!
And hope u strike 4D soon
-flashback-
Actually there is no flash back coz i couldnt remember her at all on the furst day and she didnt go for the Flag day so.. couldnt remeber at all.. but hehe
i can make up some/// ho ho.. how would a person think jin yan be like...
when see see this skinny ger
whom sind can blow her off
her face is pale
she hardly talks
maybe a smile or two
for a answer she will give
you would feel that life for her
would be black and white
coz she seldom talk
seldom mixed
she hobby should be books
her CCa should be libray
her nite life is so-so
or just reading up at night
for that wad u think only
she like techno
which explains why she crazy for Jay
she like to be called
Jay
Zhou dong
Or jayln(that sound more girl)
she damn funny
with her actions
with her "fight back"
As in her reply
You be shock in what she can sya
which make everyone burst with laughter
She can rap well
but her volume
is ecpected
u properly have to be near her one foot
to guess what she saying
She Tends to look innocent
which are why some guys might be falling for her
She Navie
but she no innocent
she Evil
MUAHAHAHAHA
She is navie
and traditional
sometimes that is lacking
in this women winning society
guess that a gem in this world now
i just said
she attract guys actually
She know wad she wans
get wad she wan
she know what she should not do
and dont do it
stubborn goat
she have a
"anything attidue"
or rather
"heck care"
she might seems easy to read
but her thoughts will shock you
she seldom on whose side
whose right
whose wrong
i cant figure why yet
she might not like you
but she never hate you
and u never know if she dont like you
coz her feelings are seldom laid
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We went K box again
*she made me broke my swear god!*
coz that stupid ice-skating close at 4.30m and there hell lots of people
when i see so may people
i am shaking my head firmly
when i see jin yan reaction
also same.. she say last time she come also dun have to many people.. then she also dun wan
but xue-er and demin wans.. but in the end when is says its closing early at 4.30 eveyrone give up
Went K box..
again
i and demin run out of songs
too bad xue-er have to go first
so.. we lied and cheat
when xuer left
then daphne come
but weh name only 4 person
this time we can order "drinks"
But was not nice
couldnt even get abit drunk
hehe..
I have to say
i am BEST IN BUYING PRESENT
HAHAHAHA
SUPER DUPLE HWEELING
SHEEEEe soo touched
use the best value buy the best present!
.. alright.. back to humble self
Ahem*
Haha
WE bought jin yan this voucher
coz she aim very long le
and the stock is running out
but it cost about 100 bucks
so she not buying
but it looks damn good on her
is that "eeeEEEee" shop voucher
and jackson say he is sponsering another half of it
Ahem*
*had help but to think*
anywya think jin yan was really Happy
and touched
*again*
Haha
at first we lied.. say we no time to buy present
Then *pop*
present out!
then we went down to jurong i think
to meet clive and jackson
had dinner and games
over-all
A Day
once again
Happy 17 jin yan
been blog hopping
since some time i done it
saw ting blog
saw that guy blog
kinda confuse
but i feel..
Hmm confuse
and sick for ting
heard she been pouring
frm eyes and hearts
seldom se her cry
guess she change
good
i hope she gets out of her sticky love
and stick to one
i gave her my comments
tell her my advice
wish her all i could
and i really hope things are fine
cant help her much since i dunno much
but however
i hope for her
she know whom she wants
and stick to that with no doubts
when u know a friend is upset or happy
u generally feel the same
it need not to be for be a lover
just someone u love
like family & friends will do
when someone u love have problems
all day long u filled with her or his problem?
hopping somehow u can reach a solution that can helped
hopping that probelm goes so that someone u love can be happy
to me some
those who can open and shut their mouth with i love you
are people who dont
actions speaks louder then love
i dun like people to say "love" easily
is a insult to such a strong word
use like
like like
anything but
not love till u really do
coz it be lying when u use it
and bloody insulting to this word
if u like someone u want to be with him
if u love someone u wan him to be happy
when u really love someone you dont have to be with the person,
everyone should fight for whom they love
provided the person they love, love them
or else the u be holding on to a empty shell
when obstacles make relationship weak
it meant this relationsip is not strong
and it will sink eventually
coz true love becum stronger coz obstacles
when u love someone
it be blind with love
her weakness is wad u love
so is a strong point
and u love with no complain no regrets
no nutting wadever then love
i am not talking abt lover just
also family and friends
when u really treat this person as a real friend
her weakness u see
but u not take her weakness as a reason
for friendship to break
you will try to change her
not coz u find that weakness irrating
but for her own good
so that she become a better person
u care not for the sake for caring
as some unwritten law is there
lover ask their parnter to be careful whjen u go home
call when they reach
issit for the sake of it
or issit for they are really concern if they reach home safe by their self
do they say i love u
for the sake to ensure themself
as that wad most lover does
ok.. heres daniel entry
this guy..
(tml i write jin yan also like tt
-flash back)
when i frst see him.. wad with jacen
tot ...
sleepy head
and without stupid
jacen
stupid
but also sleepy
but my thinking soooo much better then miss chen demin... haha.. i not allow to say wad issit
but will till in grad. time.. haha.. wait til then
Garden schoool
our best joke till now
*HahA*
anyway
daniel seems to be abit anti kinda
only talk to the guys like davin and patrick
then he quite talkaitve
remeber after mst he talk tons of craps non stop
but anti boy
of gers that is
then today chat with him
still so crappy
he going for the motorla job!!
Arg.. i went last time
they reject me
after like 3 hours of waiting all tt shit
then reject me..
bloody helll
the pay like.. 0.0
ur eyes go big de le!
Ot is 10 bucks le
then nite shift even more
i willing to work
even though is like super far le
but they dun wan me!
say too far they dun wan
then daniel he might be getting the job
ask him help me ask le
haiz~ unfair man
singapore also consider small
if he get in
then i also no problem
then i pray he get
but if he get then i dun have
i hope he dun get it
but he say
if he get the job
he will sponser
all the drinks
hmm u know.. DRINKS..
that inculde those that under 18 not suppose to have de
hmm.. sponser le
so i better change my sentence
if he get in i dun
i hope
he get sack after the BBQ
Ahmen!
one thing i kinda shock in daniel is he quite "on"
ask him go where he go
ask him pay 35 bucks for a chalet he dun mind
ask him go BBq he dun mind
ask him help
he say he very steady de
-bleah-
Steady!
i better go sleep
i been like..
sleeping at 5Am
waking at 5 AM
last nite was even worse
i couldn't sleep till the next mornign 10AM!
then i manage to doze at 11Am till 5PM
then went for work
mum they went for shopping
spend quite alot i heard
the korea show getting kinda lame and boring le..
i better go sleep
tell daniel but for tell myself..
nite people
My handphone
the screen got damange
dunno why...
i drop it..
then just nice
give a super kick
then there.. the phone screen becum
____________
**************
**************
___________
horrible.. wad i DO!?
The * actuallyt means black color
so half of the screen is black
gonna have it repair
but i dun have warrnty
this phone is heng heng picked de
haiz.
*hole in pocket*(
again
this entry is for daniel.. and my handphone
tml entry will be for jin yan
stay tuned
will be working mon tues wed fri sat and dun
going to be rich
but tired
last paper
we waited for Big Card dAphne
xue-er bday present was given
she was freaking touchED!
glad she like that present
of coz! by hwee ling idea@!!!
better not snatch credit le
HAha..
Sweet and happy 18 to kitty
u and ur bf.. hmm
legal to have that le
jOking*
oh ya qixiang start work at Quuens
woinder how the job
When shopping with the guys
took neop prints
wad okay i guesss
the guys took Also!!!
jackson one with me
he left in a hurry
thanke for staying for photo taking
Wah.. so people wor
dun wan take act dao le
then in the end take best view
bUttt.....
tHanks guys!
very "on"
the picture
either jackson missing
or daphne missing
Haha
Del flying at 1am
sayonara
hope she have a gooD and happy Time and stay there
when shopping
clvie bought pants
no need think twice
"can claim frm mom"
the gals bought nutting
xue-er got debit card frm Bf
so she bought some clothes
she need lar
she soooooo lasy like but always wear jeans!
soooooooo wasted
that EEEeee shop looking for poepl
$5 buck per hour
Think heaven happing lots of sad thing
or flooding there le
it was pouring in earth
POURINg
got drench
demin umbrella too small
she got drench as he share with clive
the rest of us ok ok lor
then jin yan "brought" clive to bus stop
then demin "brought" xue-er to hook a cab
but hooking failed
Haha
wthen i pei cue-er in the end
got drench in the rain for 15 min
no bloody taxi stop
so we got half drench
we talk to mrt
Wah..
i got drench totally
was snezzing Away
horrible Flu
then did a good deed
lend ang moh umbrealla witrh daphne
Hehe *Angels*
Went Kbox
broke arnt we?
jin yan bday cumming
going ice-skatting
ok..
did i just say i am broke?
let me swear
i not going to K box expect once
for this month
i promise my sis i bring her
so i ant go back on words
i am broke now
and k box is getting boring for me
and more expensive
got many people bday
even my mom is on nov.
i pocket gonna have a big fat hole
chalet off
wad to do with people turns off
but cant blame
democracy ma
people got free thinking
ya wadever
anyway is change to BBQ
is for damin and qi xiang
who both fall on same day
this better work out
or else... i cant do much can i?
anyway
WE GIRLS CAN ORGANISE CHALET WELL
if some people they can organise better
they organise themself KAY!
or rather organise their lifes
and their attitudes
the problem with the chalet is
people not attending
and i am gald whoever cut down on whoever comments
i dont give a damn
about people
who comment for the sake of it
or people who just wan to win
but is up to nerves at times
but maybe he got thru messages
so.. Erm.. good
BBQ!!!
OKOK!!! going to be quite cheap i think
chaper LAR!
Last paper is over
at last
at least able to breath more freely after this
or at least
with less guilt hanging
papers were horrible freaking difficult
and i i tried
but
i think i could not make it
i can only say maybe
lets say ecct?
anyway
is over
have to see if there a need to retake or not..
if no need
i start to count my blessing
and thank people for helped me
if not
i be moody for days again
haiz
i start to prey
same for u
for me kay?
Got a new blog skin..
the taggy is below..
cant seems to get it up
coz or else the whole thing will get kinda messed
isnt really wd i have finding
but was the best i could find
start to like it more now
but scrolling is quite a small job then
HowS?
Muggling the whole nite
didnt catch a wink
Thought paper start at 2
study till blur le!
start at 9AM!!!!
at first studying
i leave out the behind topic
Coz i thought i got plently of time
as long as i dont sleep
really didnt Even Close my eyes
or take a short nap at all
is no good
feeel so tired sleepy and.. uncomfortable
theni was on the bus
demin suddenly called
"WHERE U NOW!!! PAPER STARTING"
Shit me!
study till blur le
lucky i decide to skip sleep and go school first
"UNCLE!!!! I LATE LEE!!! GOT EXXAAAMMM AT 9!! CAN PLS PLS PLS
DRIVE FASTER"
"Wah.. Xiao Xie.. exam can also remeber wrong?"
"ok ok! i pia!"
*sheepish*
with sweaty hands
slightly shaking
With Beads of sweats
i made it
but for wAD?
guess wAD
ya wAD?
Wad Wad wAD!!!
the topics that cam eout
are the ones
that i decide to study in school
when i tot i got all the way to TWo pm
haiz
i waste the whole nite muggling for nutting!
disapointed
this time i tot
i study
should be able to paSS
i wan to pass
but!! why fate !!
u like that play with me!
guess it over
HaiZ
This ChalEt thing
bound to be off
dumb u
Why u oraganise in the first place
u really think the class people veRy "on"
do u really think That At least 15 will turn up?
Dumb u!
u think wAD?
People know is Some dumb
fReaking noisy ger who like to talk like no body bussiness
organise de
u think they come!?
u think!
Ya rite u think!
Wad the hell
Should have know from the start
but if the didnt chat about the chalet thing
i also dunno who are those !@#%^*$^%^& poeple
so would i have not known that some people in class
dun like the "high" Gang of us
Wadever man peoplE
Really Wadever
dont want to go rite?
dont go!!
i said i dun like it when during this kinda function
poeple who are not "on"
nither do i like to force or persude people To go
to me?
Go Or noT
then Ta-Da..
And i hate to beg
like As if some people dont go i be Sad
i Ask twice coz i Asked
but u dont want to go
just spit it out
like you dont go
i Be Sad
thAt why
i like to organise such stuff
but i hate the contacting parts
i hate to see people giving lame exucse
just to say " No"
WaDeveR
Arg.. i am venting my ANger
i migth be writing sense i might not
so i am soooooo freaking PISSED
OMG!!
i going to have a BF(White ChIck)
HAHA
NeveRmind
Whn Plan A fail
I got Plan B and Plan C
SiAo GanG!~~~
Shit ME!!!
i been sleeping 12 hour eveyrday le!!!
ARg..today break all record!!
i slept till 5 u know!!!!!!!
arg.. been chatting till late nite/early morning
with my class people
Basically we were chatting about chalet!
we thinking of having chalet in our claSS
then we found out the prices all that
now daphne need to check the days
then we have to get people going
i can already know who going and who not
butTTTtt i Reeeaaaaallllyyy hope the whole class can go!
If less then 13, we have to call it off..
this time i really hope it going to work!
so last nite was like all of us conference call!!
so fun!!!
but when everyone start to chat,
some people canot stop yanking
some people cannot stop crapping
then was like
WhoA
then feel kinda bad
i ask qi xiang to shut up
then in the end he also hang up first
wanted him to be back in the conversation aftet that
coz after wad i hear from mel the jacen thing
then wanna ask him
coz i think he and jacen more close
so wana know issit
that jacen is anti-hweeling
coz hweeling plans stuff so borrrring
sooo stupid
soooo not the fun
shit i am doing it again
i am starting to give so much a damn
about how people think of me
hwee ling
no one is perfect
not everyone might like ur idea
even u try ur best
coz eveyrone have different thinking
eveyrone have different thinking
i cannot be bother with wad eveyrone thinks
just be urself
and dont think so much on how to improve
then make urself stress
If only
i think i got improve
at least i listen
and i do take comments i think worth taking
wah.. i hear 2 things in this conversation
that make me see
blue
red
orange
and white
I hope the whole class goo plSSSss
