Missy Teo's Oddments

YoHOoOoOo~!!!

Went to do my hair!!!
a Very big change and a daring highlight!

HaHa but i think it look not bad.. though abit too Striking for the first time..

but my heart will be wincing whenever i look at my acocunt!
190 GONE!!

but worth it lars
is a promotion
highligh+ lowlight + treatment and hair-cut
plus i buy a treatment thingy
HAiz!
but i think worth it man!!

Ta-DA!}

BeforE!


After


Nice mah?!?!?!?!

i just read my blog
seems like i am getting sadder everyday
but i dont think so

when i first create my blog
was not suppose to bring out
a side of me
that is already been shown
that is already knew
that bubbly hot temper happy guai lan
me

but was to write and type out those feelings
that was never knew
everyone have different side
my blog is showing the deep in thought of me
and the me u dunno
but that dont meant
wad i wrote
made the real me

Darn!
though that impluse is gone
that feeling is gone
i think i re-write

sicking! i cant remeber though it happen 5 min ago

shiitty blogger fault!

ok to all:
these days whenever i am alone
whenever i am online
alot thoughts came running to me
and they never go
or
was it always there
but my soul ignore their exist
till i started knowing

doies that meant i sad
just i am filled with thoughts
but i still am hyper happy
and guai lan
just that ..

everyone hates her
hates him
becuase we felt unfair for
"HER"
how would SHE feel
if SHE is still here
We felt they betray
in and for the soul for HER's

but now these this new thinking comes to me
if SHE was here
SHE wont be sad coz
he marry her
what really will pained HER most
is that they hates him
ties are broken
that the 3 dearie
SHE brought to life
that were supposed
to create a rainbow
in his and HER life
now is
a rainbow in black and with hatred
maybe SHE hate him
for making HER dearies
suffer so much!

if we really think for her
think what she really hopes to see
and let her rest in peace

oh If she was only here!
then so much hatred are gone
so much sadness will be washed
if only
if only "if" can come true
if she alive
if..
-------------------------------------------------------

i asked him
"do u remeber anything abt her?"
my heart was asking
"tell me anything abt her pls!"
so that i can remember her
stay connect with her
even through
just memebories

he said "no"
heart fell

he said
" i am a jinx"
my heart pained
for HER and him
if she know this
how her heart will be broke
she will say
"i love u but if i got a choice
i will stay
to tell u that u are so wonderful,
just that i dont have the chance"
he not a jinx
he is my role model
he is brave
he is tired
he is sad
he is filled with everything
everything that he shouldnt deserve
i love my god brother
though so far
so mad of me

how could i love her
someone i have no re-collection
yet dying and yearning to know her
----------------------------------------------
i been adding one of my cousin online
and my 2nd god-brother

i always hear my mum say
SHE used to dote him most!
he used to be very
gentle
kind,
guai,
smart
she love him most
If she here
she will paint his world
with colours
with happiness
not like now
with black
and hatred
why has her favourite son
turn out like this

as i cant manage to add my 2nd god-brother since i dunno what his email was
so i type his a short msg
couldnt remeber what the content was but i remeber typing sumthign like this
"i am your cousin and co-called god sis by name"
"so-called" "by name"


then briefly asking him to add me

then i kept thinking
his un-recieve yet
email
will he reply?
wad?
what will he think?
is like waitinf for your olevel result
or some job interview
it taunt me
something i dunno wad issit yet
taunt my thoughts

then i recalled
i cant remeber talking to him b4
nope
none
unless u count that wedding day
he said
"put the water back to the fridge"
"so thirsty"
"thnx"

is that talking?
bloody say no

i read his profile
i read his testimonal
i felt my heart wrecking
for someone i didnt spoke to
for my17 life
but just because
he is my brother
----------------------------------------

my god-mother
my 2nd god-brother, gavin
my 3rd god-brother , wei long
they have been on my thoughts so often this days
it hurts to keep thinking
yet i wanted to

i wish
i am close with them
like a real sister
coz i believe
that day my god-mum took me as her god daugther
wants just so fun
f.a.t.e brought me closer to them
and calling the choice of my god mother for a half daugther
just a choice
will be an insult

i actually just wrote a very long post but it got lost
sicko blogger

i am fine
Really

but actually dun see i
like to talk loudly, dee siao siao
actually i need space and peace
and that dont mean i am angry

just talk to my god brother
at first
very happy
very long nv talk le
then talk to serious stuff
haiz/
i start to leak
then ok ok le~
but i was in shock

he is wad i tot he was
i dunno which is iwhich
he changed?
or wad he like that all along?

or

has things changed him?
had problems made him like that?

sorry i am no kiddo
i tend to act kiddo
coz i dun wish to think like a adult
and be troubled
again
remeber. is i dun wish
not i cant.

what the world going to be like?
ties that are broken
is even harder to mend

t.i.m.e

korZ (nv called him tt b4)
dun stress
and
pls be more kinder

Wath that "sin-der-rare-la" story today
so dumb man!
maybe coz i expect good
as many people say
"aW~ so touchinG"
"aW~ i cried"

yet i watch yawning
huH.. Wadever~ haha

AiYo.. My mom today nv buy the dye for me le!
tml suppose to go the hair makeup le leh!
then postphone
was really sorry to de min the great~
coz i think she look very forward
then i let her "air-row-plane"
sorry man!
nv.. i sing this she smile!

Wow Hoo Wow EE YeAA~~~
i love u more then i can say
Na~nA~nA~nA~nA tml...
Woo Wooo
love u more then i can say

HAhA~

Never Grow Up

Somehow.. i really wish we all never grown up..
i was scanning thru a piles of my childhood photos
that i tucked neatly under that book
of my fav.

i look
scan
and remebered
all those ties
which i tot was unbreakable
when i was young
they ask for my best friend
i name the same person
when ask for my sibling
i said 3 elder brother 1 younger sis and little bro
so straightforward
without second thoughts
as we grew
people drifted
for we had different thoughts
different school
different time
my grandpa home
was a place
that always remind
ties lay there
every sunday
every new yr
and all those grand days
where i saw familar faces
with familar feelings
a ties that blind us

then everyone moved
he got a new wife everyone hated
though i never seen her
never talk to her
never been with her
i hate her
and him.
dunno why

then my grandpa died
my grandma moved
going there every sunday seems
......
seems not needed
then my family had problems
i avioded their present
avioded anyone
yet
deep down
i wan yearning
for anyone to help
anyone who cares
i hated myself that time
i dun wan pity
i dun need them

wad was prove wrong

wads wrong with growing up?
does taht meant losing touch
things can never go back to wad it was
is over
yet

i LuVeEE Zhi hao~~!!!

i think i gone bonkers liao..every since tat weding dinner.. whenver i see his photo.. i fallin again~~!!

i hope he leaves once and for all..

New Skin

nice?

find so long~~~!!!!

then edit alot..
the pic is i ownself find de..

demin also starting blog

so tired..
better go ZzZZ
tml must help her to do her blog also

EVERYONE GOT BLOG!!

commentS! nice ma>?

notice small different in my blog?

i remove all the pic. le
good or not huh?
i tot was too laggin
give comments.. got or dun have better

my cousin so ke ai ritE?!!!!

oh ya// remind me of sumthing

that weddin nite//talk to my cousin
WhAo.. she and ee mei same class for some module
then heard ee mei got say till me

say i bully her good friend
then we are not friends in sch (enemy lars)

Wah..
daphne say i should change my msn nick to
" wad the world happening to?"
Good one// but nah

maybe i sleep talk to school and bully hui yu
then that day everyone in school hate me blame me bah

but i remember is opp. le
or did the whole school sleep walk?
haha

den later when i an hui yu talk in msn slove the misunderstanding
things also not said like that

i forgotten about it le
but last nite
it remind me

actually there a silver linning behind this cloud
i should try not to be so straight forward
coz not all can take my jokes
and maybe not to get to devoted in friendship and put so much in it
misleading myself

the most impt thing i learn
is how to deal with sly and cunning people
with plans around their brain
also frm there
i knew how to see the ugly side of people
not deceiving myself so easily
and MOST IMPT!

i knew who are my close real friends
who stood my me and gave me promises

.. wad i bully hui yu huh?
-blah-

CuTie Cousin!!!
i Fallin luvEE with him!!
haha.. look liek that "wang wang pao pao" guy
SOO ChubBY!
Zhi Hao!! 4yRs old onlY!

Jia YI!!!
SupEr HypeR boY
Eveyrone Fav.!

LooK Wad lOOk hUh//

took alot but these are the best 3!

AnoTHeR loTs of eMtionS RunNing Day~

toDay is Ta-Da! my God brother (elderest)(edwin) WeDdInG~~

HehE.. he also consider is my cousin.... ok..
should be
he is my cousin and also can be considerd as god brother

godbrother is just a kinda name
a term to link us
we arnt close
not even close cousin or siblings
but yet.
we do care for each other(i think? for him?)
when i reach some difficulties
i sms my 3rd god brother just to chat
when i need a adult for advice
i can call my elderest god brother
he always help me
but also scold me ;P

maybe coz i am the elderest at home
alot things i have to take the lead
take the task
teach them
but i also need someone to
help
be there
teach me
when i reach secondary, poly,work
i hope there someone
to guide me
i also got lost too
sometimes i also wish
to be pampered
sometimes i wish someone would do things
like what i am doing to my younger sis and brother

maybe that why
i treasure them alot
though far and away
but at least there, when i need
haha
not alot people know this
i always kept this myself

i am pretty jealous
of my anothr cousin
coz she/him sems very close to them
even that i think
till now
they treat her/him more like god si/bro bah
sometimes i wish
and wish and wish
to be her/him
to have that kinda of family
that kinda of life

but then
i still think mine not bad
and i think i shouldnt complain
no one is perfect
and family
is frm the start
till the end
u can break off friendships
u can lose ur relasiotnship
but never kinship
coz we are blood related
and coz we are a family

and i learn alot

~~shit me huh.. now a days like very sad like that
so many this kinda thinking. HAHA~

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

okayS! let talk about the WeDdinG~

so toDay hUh
work up soo early~~
then got "long-bang" frm my 3rd god-bro
he Can drive le.. but just got "lie-sent"
abt half yr bah
anyay.. soo small the car. but we SquEEx laRs
then at there quite outcast
i didnt talk
just sit there
then smile at people

the only think i really remember
is when the god bro finish the serving tea cermony stuff
then they wanted t take a sibling photo
the 3 of them ask me take
was kinda touched~
but dunno issit my mom ask them to do tt
i hope is they ask me themselves
hehe// very touched
small things that people might not notice
give me very big impacto of happiness

then waited for my 3rd brother
ok his name is wei long aka "ah-long long"
but he seems busy
doing his video for the brother weddin later
so i keep tellling my mum dun rush him
people busy

lucky in the end
my eldest uncle came to fetch us
then very funny
he and his wife
he always liek to dee siao his wife
the way i see them talk
so CutE~

ok the went hme i slept
coz last nite slept at 5 am le dunno y
then woke up
dress nice nice go the weddin
held at fullerton hotel
damn Expensive man
my god bro sure spent alot~!
the bride very beautifuL~~~~~~~!!!
of coz lar.. the dress and make up is very Pro and Ex de le!
i did nutting much
was sharing lame smile
playing with the 2 cutest thing on earth
by two bubbly cousin
haha VEry the KE ai.. I post their pic soon
then spent the whole dinner being "funny"

lots of people changes
i seen lots of familar faces
whom used to gather t my grandpa hse for CNY
i missed this kinda gathering
busy taking pic too

i wish
and wish
that my relationship with my cousin
all will improve
and hope we can get strong
that no one can break
i miss our cild times
when we all were best friends

many things drifted me apart to them
i missed them
missed the times
haha..
i wish my some fairy heard that
and make my wish come true

More Than just a project

went to the minds home for project

I wouldn't really know how to describle the kids?
mentally disable?
less forunate ones?
gods angel?
just slower humans?
pityful kidS?

none of the above

when i went there..
actually not much feelings..
then when i reach the gate
start to "ok.. wad am i suppose to do?"
then i saw this ger..
she was super hyper active
started banging at the gate wanting us in..
then one of the volunteers lets us in
that shv (super hyper active) ger started getting very excited
suddenly hug me
i got panic..
not coz of her illness
is like
i dun hug strangers
lucky de min told us her sis say
nv pull urself away or avoid them
and first one she hug was me
i had no time to think or react
i hug her back
and gave a lame smile back to her

then another gal came up
look like demin cousin
ok.. she june's clone
no joke.
then we sat there
helpless
dunno wad to do
dunno how to interact
in fact
scared and lost.
l.o.s.t

then ok we sat down with june clone
ok! her name is.. geraldine

so.. we sat down.
she brought her coloring book
told us "color book!"
ok.. we sat and colored

she tends to get disracted very easily
and she keep saying she wanna see kenny
then say if she can beat people
slap people
then she suddenly ask u stuff
that leave u ???? all over

but i like her..
she a good gal
then xue-er went to find others kids
she met one
a very smart one
fast thinking ger
infact the one on tvee b4
i interact with her
she smart kiddy
way above the others

when i sat there with daphne
looking at the kids
teaching the 2 kids
lots of thing rush over me

are they happy?
they seems to not know what they are doing?
are people happy
coz they dunno and dun care?
are those kids infact more happier?
then dunno how
some cruel people judge them
i dun felt pity for them
i felt ..
anger, unfairness.
yes anger.

why is god unfair in creating people like tt?
dont they deserve a chance?
why should they be despise by some humans
who are ugly themselves
why cant they be like us?
think like us?
why cant they be able to be..
haiz

and why i think so much huh dearie.. haha

then as i sat my bus hme
i think and thought

maybe god wan some
special angels to come
to tell the ugly humans
there are people
who might seems disable
but they are not
not disable
to the path of happiness
where ugly humans
are disable
to there
h.e.a.v.e.n.

or back to chinese olden time?
they did evil thing in the past
so they paying in next life

h.a.h.a

wadever it is

is dont matter

some ppl read my blog
will be stun
WOW..
hwee ling..
she think so much aR?
so serious huh?
unlike the me huh

nah i am not..
just tots of my serious inner self

i believe things happen for a reason
and often ppl dun think abt that reason
thus they got lost
they went the wrong way
then regret in the future
whenever i reach a path to chose
i think
will i regret in the past doing this?
then i chose

sometimes
i just dont think
thinking too much kill my cells
tt y i remain smart


Ok go puke!

I LOVE YoU NoT BeCAuSE OF WhO YoU ARE,
BUT BeCaUSE OF WhO I AM WHeN I Am WiTh YOU.....

No MaN Or WoMaN Is WoRth YouR TEaRS,
AnD ThE OnE WHO is,Won'T MaKE yOu CrY.....

JuSt BEcAusE SomEoNE dOEsN't LoVE YoU ThE Way YOu WAnt TheM TO,
DoESn't MeAN TheY thEY DoN't LoVe YoU WitH aLL ThEY HaVE...

A TrUe FrIeNd Is SoMeONE wHo rEAcHes FoR YoUr hANd
AnD ToUchES YouR hEART

THe WorST wAy To MiSs SomEoNE iS tO Be SittINg
RiGhT bESIdE ThEM KnOWinG YoU CaN'T HaVe ThEM...

NeVeR FrOwN,EveN WhEN YoU ArE SAD,BeCaUSe YoU NeVer KnoW
WhO Is FaLLinG In LoVe With YouR sMile

To ThE WoRLd YoU MaY Be OnE PErSON,
BuT tO oNe PeRsOn YoU MaY bE ThE wORLD .

DoN't WaStE YoUR TiME On A MaN/WoMaN,
WhO Isn't WiLLiNG tO WasTe ThEiR tImE On You...

MaYbE GoD WaNtS Us To MeeT A FeW WrOnG PeOPLe
BeFOrE MeeTiNg tHe RigHt OnE,
So ThaT WheN We FinaLLy MEet ThE PeRson,
We WiLL KnOw HoW To Be GrATefUL..

DoN't CrY BeCAuSE It iS OvER,SmILE BecAUsE It HAppENed.

ThErE's AlWaYS gOInG To bE pEOpLE tHAT hURt yOu
So wHAt yOU HaVe To DO iS KeEp On TRusTiNg
And jUsT Be MOre CarEfUL AboUt WhO YoU tRuSt nExT tIme ArOuNd..

MaKE YOurSeLf A BETtEr PeRSon AnD
KnOw whO YoU ARe BefORe YoU TrY AnD KnOw SoMeOnE ELSe
ANd ExPecT TheM To KnOw YOu...

DOn'T tRy So HaRd,ThE BesT ThIngS CoME
WhEn YoU LeasT ExPeCt TheM tO......

True FRiend RemEMbEr WhaTEvEr HapPEns,HapPeNS fOr A ReAsOn...

HeyS..

i cooled down now..

haha for 10 min? HAHA

ya know..

when people first get angry
they show their first reaction
might be over reacting
might be very fierce

is ok
get angry,sad,upset
but remember
get over it

i should pity him laRs..
sadist
i mean..
how do u live ur life everyday blaming eveyrone elsE
thinking ya funny?
when people are actually laughing at you
not ur joke dumb and the dumber!
and how to live life
thinking everythings unfair?
bad? only ya right (puke)

sadist live short life
even short life also live unhappily

no.. not really trying to be mean
but really honest..

ok lets be mean

does he rear worms?
or else why face got so mnay holeS?

ok tt was very mean
oh ya
help me tell him my name is HWEE LING
not hui ling le
very sad le..
wanna be mean to me also spell wrong name

WAHAHAHHAAHA
MEanster

FUCKINF BASTARD CALL DAVIN

A BIG SADIST WHO THINK HE IS FUNNY BUT HE IS NOT
A FACE FULL OF HOLES
GOT BAD BREATH

BLAME EVERYONE EXPECT FOR HIMSELF
NO WONDER HIS PARENTS HATE HIM
AND HE HAS A LOUSY LIFE

ASS-HOLE

cool.

talk to Qi xiang yesteRday...
sorry ya.. in rough mood.. so was being kinda rude..

Wads happen to him..
happened to me ..

the hardest thing.. and the flaw of me

is never be able to let go things easily..

dunno why.. maybe i take everythings seriously?
not seriously as in nerdy way or think too much

just.. i will remember lor.. and
once i know a friend
is a friend for life..

so.. tt time hui yu and ee mei backstab me
i cried.
felt so sad
and after tt
cannot stop hating and remebering...
to be hate
is nutting
to hate someone
is tiring and painful

anyway people must look in the future..
remember the past
be it bitter or sweet
is stays as a membory
a lesson u learnt

but nv live in the future
or it will be like fashion
stuck there
while everyone move on

dun fake being happy when u are not
be happy
really.
frm ur heart
be happy

ok is 5am!

i just scream and woke the whole family

i just finish packing stuff then decide to use the bathroom
then suddenly i hear something moves in the kitchen

Frighten.

burglar?
or just wind..
or..
ghosT?

Arg.. on the lights

A cat cum running to me
i dun have pets!
ARG!!!!!~~~
ScReam.. got shock!
my mom and dad also scream!
then eveyrone woke up..

then they set up the trap to make the cat go!
haha so funny

but i got a shock!

i hate cats!
lazy and evil!

When i was young
i watch this famous cartoon fairytale
the "cind-der-rare-la"
the stupid evil cat
frm tt day
i hate cats

Qixiang..
look forwaRD!!!!
dun live in the paSt le!
All the beSt

alright. MST IS CUMMING!!!
STUDY!!!

the problem with me...
i get distract easily..

arg.. the computer always seduce me
"come online baby!"

arg.. then the stupid tvee!!!
"u sure u wanna miss this good show!? even advertisment sound good honey.."

Arg.. Too many!!!!

so.. i studied in the night
when the world asleep..

even no one online
even tveesssss advertisment are on some lame hong kong foot..

there.. STUDY!

i slept at 7AM this morning.. Arg/ maths

still got long way to go man..

alright.. i see myself failing wsop and internet programing.. Arg.. wth man

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

ok.. i met up with del on thursay.. our project
on the way..
kinda gald i am doing with her..
LUCKY NO JIN YAN!@
or else..
Arg.
JOKING!

ok.. so we.. quite nicely done up
but we stuck in java script..
cant we just draw out at the computer?
or.. click on a link.. then Ta-da
ok.. box me..

so pretty cool.. we both shares some common stuff regarding the class people.

and.. anyone who have diskman or waklman spoiled.. pas to del.. she cool
she fixed hers... by slamming to the table wAHAHAHAAHAH

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------

haiz.. suppose to go zoo today.
i was so excited..!!!
zoo.. i think i last went was4 yrs back?
somemore is so cool! can get to do sumthign with the kids..
oh ya..
sorry
i am talking abt Cd project

so ya. but we didnt go in the end

coz i tot was next sat...
then this week is study week.. i kinda worried i got no time so studies
but is ok..

then daphne mom also object
next week exam still go zoo!
like daphne really so keen to see her relatives...
monkey on the loose..

kinda disapointed.. yet glad
huh?
-----------------------------------------------------------------------
my sis bought a new digital camera
but damn selfish.

when i got my new disk man..
i lend her.. s
he already spoilt 2 OF MY DISK MAN!

then when i wana borrow hers..
she like
"why!!!"
"cant dun wan?"
i got so mad..

Selfish slut u!

i am cool later..

-----------------------------------------------------------

next.. pp..
do u really think fat people are desperate for love?
fat people should be glad just any tom dick or harry
cum along and say
i love u
and we will fall in luv just coz we never been?

Arh..
stop tt le..
i dun mind jokes
but get ur thinking right!
bloody

get.. wana pick a date for R.O.M??
hahahaahahahha

I'm sure many of you watched the recent tapingof the Oprah Winfrey show where her guestwas Tommy Hilfiger.

On the show, she asked him if the statementsabout race he was accused of saying weretrue.

Statements like: "If I'd known African-Americans, Hispanics, Jewish and Asianswould buy my clothes, I WOULD NOT havemade them so nice. I wish these people would*NOT* buy my clothes, as they are made forupper class white people."

His answer to Oprahwas a simple "YES". Where after sheimmediately asked him to leave her show.

My suggestion? Don't buy your next shirt orperfume from Tommy Hilfiger. Let's give himwhat he asked for. Let's not buy his clothes,let's put him in a financial state where hehimself will not be able to afford the ridiculousprices he puts on his clothes.

>>> BOYCOTT. PLEASE SEND THISMESSAGE TO ANYONE YOU KNOW <<
Stop buying any rangeof their product, perfume, cosmetics, clothes,bags, etc. etc.

Another inspiring true story.>>>>>

Scene took place on a BA flightbetweenJohannesburg and London.

A white woman,about 50 years old, was seated next to a blackman. Obviously disturbed by this, she calledtheair Hostess.

"Madam, what is the matter," thehostess asked. "You obviously do not see itthen?" she responded. "You placed me next toa black man. I do not agree to sit next tosomeone from such a repugnant group. Giveme an alternative seat." "Be calm please," thehostess replied. "Almost all the places on thisflight are taken. I will go to see if another placeis available."

The Hostess went away and thencame back a few minutes later. "Madam, just asI thought, there are no other available seats inthe economy class. I spoke to the captain andhe informed me that there is also a seat in thebusiness class. All the same, we still have oneplace in the first class." Before the womancould say anything, the hostess continued: "It isnot usual for our company to permit someonefrom the economy class to sit in the first class.

However, given the circumstances, the Captainfeels that it would be scandalous to makesomeone sit next to someone so disgusting."She turned to the black guy, andsaid, "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to,pleasecollect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you infirst class." At that moment, the otherpassengers who were shocked by what theyhad just witnessed stood up and applauded.

back 4 yrs time
i was navie
i tot those "ahmohs"
were great people!
tot they were the kindest race
tot they were the most pure people
they were always like polite
generous

then i read this book
on some babay siters
this new babaysiters had a hard time fitting in and finding jobs

she have the looks
the figure
the brains
but she a black
quicky
i say tt books is rubbish
spoiling my image my pride of the noble "ahmohs"!

then i started reading more
and even went up to my teachers
is this true?
then i starting accepting
amercias are cruel people
thy over work the plack and asian
they feel they pure,noble,generous
or wad so ever
and i tot so...
4 yrs back..
i did

now to me?
they are not ALL cruel
but they nv going to be that
angelic as i tot they were
they were..
just plain humans after all

hiaZ

just went to one of my close best friend blog
is she my best friend?
arg.
doubt so
i dun understand her
i dunno her
i nv share secrets with her
she nv share with me
we seldom meet
but..

to me..
she more then a friend
duno why

ok..
saw her blog
she seems very vexed
haiz..
sould feel her anger
worries
confuse

alright..
here wad i wana say to u,
u care too much for others
in a way
it is senseless
u only trust yourself
u only wan others to be happy
but u forgot
u lived for urself too
is right to make others happy
but is more right to make urself happy
in the past i see myself there
i dun wan people to know
how i think
what i feel
afraid

i dunno why
but i know that feeling
that worry
that.. urge?
but i dun how to describlle it

ok... i can give u two advice
dare to put it out
dun surpress your feelings
never do that

ya i dun mean open up like wad
i mean.. dont have to "ke it"to act strong or happy

or else
did wad i did
find one person./.
to talk to
to confide it

u nv really confide
u were always afraid
always hiding

and..
someone to confide to
dun need to be ur long time
or ur best
or ur childhood friend
but..

someone u willing to tell
and someone..
who understand

get it?

actually i already knew u will have this probelm like that

that why remeber in the past
i got quite..
erm work up when i see u over work?
and ppl bully u?
not bully
but.. dunno how to say

but meow..
learn to let it go

sws concert

we meet up
dressed up formal
in black
classic!

haiz.. i overslept
hiaz
was too tired from that morning shift/
so.. haiz.. late then

ok i think half the day is spoilt
y? coz we reach on hr later
haha OMg..

then got kinda pissed?
both?
she sleep!
and she dont even bother to bring us there
hello!
u promise one!
haiz then got fed up and angry and.. ok hungry
so forget it.. just abit spoilt .. wasnt really very mad.. but.. haiz
then...
we went to have some food
YUCKS junrong east sucks
but better then hawker!
use ur brains duh
omg.. like rose on cow dung or sumthing
plus got wad flea market going one Arg!!!!!!
so out of place

then took bus
someone vomited
ok..
we got down b4 ACS
took a cab
bloody..
the uncle dunno how to go
brought us round and round
like hell
even ask me check up the book for him
ask we call daphne correct ma!
hello!
who the driver!!
even overcharge us
go wrong place and u turn so many times
still dare say he correct
bloody cheater!
make us pay more!

next worse.. haiz/
sorry.. but the concert is not happening
we were late
say hi to the instrutor even!(eveyrone eyes on us!)
late mah
haiz.
then i start to see
the conert is filled with..?
kids?
haiz. i tot sws
will be moving..
touching
and classic
but i keep seeing kids around screaming
then i see water bottles
towels on stage
even if a small performance
pls respect
i even see dirty towelS!
even if my old sch band
play for the smallest even
we present ourself..
but the band was powerful actually
i lUVVVEEEE the horns!!!
OMG//. their sound is soo good..
so powerful
then the flute
really amazing
the instructor is somethign like mr badrul
ok.. mr barul look better... haha(blah!)
bought flower for my 2 sirs and mel
mel look good in suit
and WOW he the only youth in that section
must be damn good

haiz.. but i wish.. there some impact
Sucks.. unlucy day
feel sad for de min the great

went library
watch mona lisa smile
it was not very romantic
touching
horroe
funny or wad so ever
it was touching
inspiring in fact

ya eveyrone know the chinese where those "olden timeS"
must get married
gal must be gentle
gal mu have small feet
gal should do house work when married

but hey!
after watching mona lisa..
even enlighs
half the freshman was married
haha
and i learn many stories and lesson from
every different part every character
they didnt really use words to express
but i almost cried


then got finding nemo dvd
YEAA!

next was idea lesson.. got quite heated up..

first wad del grp.. Arg.. tt products were already in market..
man makeup
ya they are not well known in the market is becoz
they are not hot and well sold..
coz most man dun care so much on make up
see.. in the past..
guys dont really put up gels etc.. all the stun hair styles
and all the time they took longer then gals etc
then came gatsby hair gel all that
it was very hot selling item
even my pri 6 bro is using it
make up were intro
but were nv expand coz is not appealing
but i think the toner wash face sutff is alright then
i got friend who those use

well.. half of the class didnt pay atten in it..
there fore.. no qns ask actually..
not interested
but i think del didn a great presentation
and i think she did most work
as usual

then mel grp came up
well i am interested in their product
coz is sumthing do with music in band
one of my fav interest
then the others also getting more interested
but the product is not so good
too expensive and dont have model how heavy
and the price
there are not much band in sngapore exp fro those sch kinda
and sch kinda is not ging to buy so exp stuff exp for those top rich ones?
so was like asking mel some qns coz really interested
but mel ans
haha. he cannot take feedback well
all he wants is kinda prove he right and si good
arg// so in the end i got pissed off
though i stil got tons of qns to ak and shoot back
i just kept quiet aftet the first few replys
if he wana win
he win
then forget it lor
but xue-er got heated up too
coz mel ans was like quite rude to her and.. is
more confusing then ever his ans
ya argue
argue
oh.. i rather watch paint dry

then my grp
i think we are the best grp
haha ya
so thick skin
but we got presentation done as a grp..
discuss as a grp
and models out
researh done
so i think we are quite there
our product
also not been out too
cheaper
and might really can be carried out in fact

ok qns are shoot
i dun mind them
but i mind the tone he speaks

just nowe he the speaker he feel he is right
now he is the aud. customer. he is still right
he right forever
and whatever

then i kinda lost my mind started screaming to get the msg across
the thing is ..
he dont really nuderstand how it works
still the drawing part came up

some times i see myself there..
in tt suitation too

sometimes i also ask for the sake for asking
argue coz i wana win
sometimes is not really coz i want to know
is coz i need to ask
want to ask
want to win

i am glad i learn that lesson b4
so i am not repeating it

took me some time to post this.. coz i feel if i write
i sound like a bitch and i might hurt others
but is my blog
is really how i feel
and..
is not only me to think the same way

Since some time i blog.. haiZ.. ok LONg timE! since i blog.. soo..
i cant really recalled much..

i dont really like to remember stuff.. esp bad stuff.. coz it make me more anrgy
i can rememeber the happy stuff more clearly..

ok.. and i was lazy! So wad! sure me! huh// hahahaa

ok.. here gooooOOooEs...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------

veron leaving..

haiz..
one more of my fav's leaving sakae
haiz..

i was rather upset.. in fact veron is the only service staff i can really get along very close with
haiz.. now i think service only left lenon and grace(ok lars) tt i can look forward seeing at times..
haiz.. i think i can get along with robin now.. but his planing of schedule REALLY SUCKS!

in the afternoon.. there too many people in the nite there NOT ENUFF staff.. and his hosting suck big time.. haiz.. i work like hell man.. sucks big time!

then grace.. haiz.. i tot she was a good manager.. but now alot problems cropping up..
ah ee is leaving too.. yes becoz of grace

veron levaing is also becoz of grace.. ya and of coz .. robin

for veron case... haiz.. they been bullying her u know..
robin.. he always leave all the papers work to veron.. he suppose to do.. but he didnt// he left all to veron! people a girl and from malaysia sum more.. whenevr i see veron after 11 still cannot finish i feel so sad for her.. then now is robin plan schedule.. he plan himself damn bloody good but plan veron one's like shit!

now i and the others really all going sick.. he is overworking people.. he plan not enough people for a time slot..we have to do double job

lena.. the head.. she know abt this.. she say she understand.. coz veron got tell grace.. btu grace keep siding robin and sya she only a supervisor..say she nv respect him etc.. bloody.. she so biased till the extreme man..

then lena say she wanna transfer veron to other outlet.. veron more upset.. she say she still work in sakae sushi coz she got feelings for this outlet already.. if wan her to leave she rather quit.. then during those week she cried till her eyes go sores.. ahiz.. i can only hug her and console her..haiz.. then she now taking one week leave then decide stuff.. i miss her so much..

oh ya.. got quite angry with one of the NEw kitchen stuff.. when he come.. they already told me he very not good.. always scold people.. then eveyrthign wans his way...
naturally i am alway the runner.. so i got quite alot times wana argue with him.. his food got one day got 7 complains.. i got so pai sai.. i keep saying sorry... then he still talk liek his fault.. but i nv scold or accuse him.. then lateer do closing.. he suddenly started say we service stuff very bad etc etc.. i got so mad.. ya again.. is people fault man! but usually we are in good terms.. got to get alone with my collegues though sumtimes can really vomit blood wan wana hit them in their eye

ok this is roughly abt work

Daphne pre-celebration bday yesterday

daphne birthday is on 2 sep.. Thusaday lars.. But she sOOOOOOoooOOOooOO popular! so we are stuck in the Q of no. 2 HAha.. we celebrated yesterday..anyway.. it was fun..

Haha only 4 turn up at mmdt... we did nutting much but modifying and handing up our stuff..
then sms xue-er and scare her abit.. haha.. dee siao siao..

then we hide daphne cake.. Wah liao.. her cake arh.. make our hand ach whole morning.. i bought the cake theday b4 mah.. then i this person very the rough and clumsy ma.. Wah liao i scare later the cake ..by the time reach school..is already... not like cake man.. HAHa

so i skip bus.. took cab .. ok.. partly coz i am running late .. at first wanted to take cab whole way to school.. but i find out not enuff money.. sucks.. then stop and mrt.. omg.. i hand becum stiff..dun dare move much.. "ouCH"

then dahne last min say she will come.. gave us a shock.. so we quicky hide the cake..

then we hide in de min bag later.. haha kinda fun.. like hide and seek..

then we devils... we ask jackson dun go ecct.. haha. we teach him bad.. or maybe he cannot bear jin yan leave.. WAHAHAHAHA

so we went town.. then we were at food court playing some lame and cold jokes.. haa

wad look carefully listen properly.. then how many meh meh jumb over the wall game/

SOOO silly and lame -.-"

then went k box lor.. wahthe manager is so damn rude.. pls go learn some service rules frm sakae sushi lars!!!! then we sing till quite high lars.. we play with the stuff there.. ask them sing song..dee siao siao again lor.. WHAHAHAAAH

then took some neo prints.. we rather.. not so good coz the machine abit spoil spoil.. then damn the mood..

then talk abt daphne and banana.. Haiz.. long story..

anyway.. we didnt manage to sabo.. still got thursay *wink*wink*!

Since sometimes i blog.. so.. updated abit..

ok handed up my mmdt project.. so one down! haha

shit// left internet programming project.. with del..

Arh.. at least one down..

so wad do i left?
idea.. consider half done.. i done the presentation stuff with de min le..
some ok stuff .. ok.. dun be humble.. good stuff..
but dont really matter.. no one really pay attention to us...

dunno am i right..
to many people we are just some empty air head girls whom just giggle whole day and late for class and wait for each other in the morning..

well... if empty head can be more happy and carefree and more into new friendship.. compare to some serious people whom dunno how to spell 'break" or "enjoyment" ..

i figgure out.. THAT THEIR/YOUR

Bloody bussiness.. period!

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

next.. i cant really figure out some people..

i mean yes.. eveyrone have mood swing... but hell!.. hers is like.. serious illness in mood swing..

at first i tot was only the 2 girls that why whenever she see us with them.. she will turn to her "wadever" mood.. and be rude and sarcastic.. her words are like knife.. if you think carefully.. it trying to say "GET LOST!"

yet sometime.. she can beeeee soooooooooo hyper! and.. happy and exciting..Arg! i didnt really notice if it was really because of them now.. coz is like sooo common...
i hate to be out of control..

at least in the past.. if i see ourself with the 2 of them.. i approached her and.. u know.. lame with her or talk to her.. yet now.. i dunno if i can joke with her so easily anymore.. Arg!

Wth .. i know.. mood swing.. but hers is like.. 2 different person living in one body.. i really cant figure out her thinking.. are we still consider friends? or just some bloody stranger class mates.. ten full stop.. end there.. hell no..

i dun wan some year later see her in the street.. and just say to my friend " she only my classmates" NO!

Arg.. I hate mood swing.. and love constant

i love being sarcastic.. but i dont hurt people with tt.. hell no..